Thursday, November 20, 2008.

Woke up around 1pm, was still quite unconscious though. Went to brush my teeth, came out still looking as if I'm only half awake, saw my mum applying lotion on her chest then something totally woke me up. Guess what? OMG HOLY SHIT MY MUM WENT TO GET A TATTOO DONE ON HER CHEST! WTF! I was like totally shocked by her!! ( she keep telling me its a sticker only LOL )

So I quickly took out my camera and took a pic of it LOL HAHAH






Anyway I was laying on the bed just a moment ago, I have been thinking, is it worthwhile to do things which I think I'm doing for her sake? Trying to remember every little details of her and also I had been on MC just to see her online everyday, one day without seeing her online is torturous for me but is it really worth it when she doesn't even know? Another thought came into my mind, I had been diagnosed by neurologist for having frequent tension migraines under too much stress, diagnosed by eye specialist for having eye infection, diagnosed by psychiatrist for having mild depression under too much pressure, diagnosed by orthopedic for my back injury; degeneration of the disc and spine lowered by one level. What the hell is all these? So many problems with my body? Then I realized something, even though I had so many problems with my body, who really cares? Nobody really know whats wrong with me and nobody even bother to ask or show some concern, perhaps there's one person? Which is my mum but I rather that it would be you sighs


Ok enough of the rantings and complaints, being quite moody and emotional right now. I shall stop here then, sorry for the complaints people





*If only you were to know