Friday, April 10, 2009.

Who am I to you and who you are to me, this question had never been so clear before until today, I'm just someone who passed by your life and you are just someone that messed up my life. Feelings went haywire the whole night after reading your post and made me couldn't sleep. Yea each time when I read your post, feelings will definitely go haywire but never this much before.

It's ok, don't worry I'm not blaming you, anyway how I feel doesn't concern you and you had never try to understand or know how I feel so it doesn't matter. One thing I don't even understand myself, why must I fall in love with you out of everyone else.

Gonna club hard tonight as my last expenses and gonna drown myself in the alcohol. Oh did I mention that I'm gonna work next week onwards? It will gonna be like 8am-5pm in camp and 9pm-6am working, so won't be seeing my home for 5 days a week, will be working 6 days a week. I'll try very hard not to think of you at all anyway I don't even think I would have the time or energy by then. But I guess you won't think of me even if you are free. GAMBATE SEBASTIAN~

Guess I'll be bringing my camera with me tonight, my camera gonna rust soon if I'm still not using it.





*If love doesn't exist, my life would be great